Intern~!

Bismillahirahmanirrahim....
OK! SPiLL~!!

Intern is here.. Ma... Macam biase la kan... First week is super bosan.. Huhu... But somehow it is not that bad and not that good gak la.. Hueh3... Maa.. Selamat sudah seminggu as intern at ISS FASSB... Yes.. ISS.. Intergrated System Solution... People is wondering why me, an agro based student dekat ISS.. Haha... If I ask me, I pon tataw.. But still! I like it here.. Seeing my place surrounding by some sort of 'not my field' bakal memberi satu peluang untuk belajar new things, right....? Alhamdulillah, I am comfortable to be here except if being pasif smoker....maa... Bukan nak against mereka yang smoke it just mmg allergic sket la dgn asap2 rokok ni... Maaf yer.. If sesape terase dgn reaksi yg diberikan... But somehow, I do respect them sbb once dyorg know that I cant stand it they tend to no to smoke infront of me.. Huhu.. Mybe sbb we just get to know each other then u dont know.. So, its ok.. Ada juga among my friend yg smoke but somehow I never see they smoke infront of me.. So, that mende yg paling I glad la~ =)

Somehow, wish me luck for upcoming2 week that i expect to be tougher than ever~!! Hoyeah~!! Ganbatte~!!!

:: Won't be learn Nihonggo in quite some time... I wonder I boley catch up tak next SEM??
:: Havent buy Nihonggo Dixy yet~~ Tak jumper~!! Asal la payah sgt neh~! Hmph~!

Owari~

Awkward Silence

Spill~!!! Spill out the milk~!!! Yeah~!!

Yeah.. the milk spill.. so no chance for return... ayark! hmm.. Actually, someone terase dgn saya... yes! i know that.. Baby.. I'm sorry.. Well.. u kan taw i do spill the milk all the time.. sorry.. Well its tru sometimes silence is better.. but when with u.. i don't own that.. u r my bestie here.. I tak nak hilang that.. maybe its true yang ade certain part of you yg i ta discover lg and ade certain part of me yang u pon x discover lagi... Anyhow sorry dear... I wish you all the best for ur exam~

and.. I dont want that awkward silence... I need people to tell me my mistake yg i tataw..

ps:: I'm am straight not a lesbian~! I just love my friend more~!

Then i notice...

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This blog is OUT OF EMOTICON~!!! Yaaaa~!! Remind me to put it next time... kekekeke..

Reflection

Reflect...  Make you know your life better... Sape setuju??? angkat tangan.. kekekeke.. Well... Reflect help you untuk know urself better.. senang kata its more like looking at the mirror... reflect is about menilai or evaluate the action yang might have significance.. For example la.. if suddenly someone start to ignore you... wanna know y? so, reflect.. maybe you ade terlajak kata or misbehave somewhere yang menyebabkan org tu sentap ke ap ke.. then u will have ur decision to act.. reflect.. then you will realize that maybe u ni is that kind of person that spill out loud what you think.. So, maybe dgn itu u will control ur spill-ness level... tak pon u can give others warning not to ambil hati on ap yg u ckp or bla..bla..bla... hehe.. anyhow human being is complex.. huhu...

:: rase mcm ckp abt myself je.. =))

Versus

Bismillahirahmanirrahim....
OK! SPiLL~

Versus! 

-The hardest battle is when you are against yourself~!-

Versus... AO... Minn Edina..Well, all time favorite novel actually~!..Firstly...Not here to make review pasal this novel.. tp its a about someone that change for good.. kira2.. ala AO la.. hmm.. Yes! berubah for the term of 'baik' is hard... first its definition.. how would you define baik? "mcm mana nk jd baik?" define it first then you'll know... what is baik? if u know the meaning and be like it you akan jadi baik.. according to Hlovate, "be in ISLAM in total".. than that is baik....its require passion and high determination.. Everyone is happy.. everyone is supporting but when its comes to stepping forward.. it is not about drawing a line of boundary behind or neither to isolating yourself.. Actually sedikit terkesan la... especially people yang used baik dgn dia... Mcm mana ek nk ckp.. sbb if ckp kang look like mcm x support dia pulak kan.. hmmm... gyarh.. tp nak ckp jugak.. tak kira la for what reason u've change into a better state that us it doesn't mean that we cant even chat or interact... kawan kan? waa... sedey sbb tu je.. sbb mcm dh hilang kawan.. sob3...sedey jugak sbb kawan  i mcm hilang kawan jugak.. we might be different now but... hmm.. no comment la... somehow i'm supporting ur change... 

..VERSUS..

..the hardest battle is when you are against yourself..

..but the thing that u love the most might not the best after all.. 

 _CHANGING FOR GOOD IS NOT A CRIME_inshAllah_with Allah will, I will_

amin~

:: if nk faham my rant-ing i reading Versus would be the solution...If you want one.. lemme know~
:: Versus! All time favourite novel.. and will keep re-reading... btw Hlovate... I'm waiting for ANTHEM plish~!!

:: Own "Romantism: Weapon of Satan" and "Quick Grasp of Faith" but haven't read it yet.. hmm... rugikn x bc lagi.. aiyoyoyo...but still I will read it somehow~

Fighting~

Spill~!! SPiLL~!! and spiLL~!!

dush2...haha... I bergaduh dgn seseorg~~ well, it still the same person yg i still try to adapt drpd awal tahun and its end up this SEM it burst.. KAMI GADUH~~ hehe... lawak kan... still bley gelak even if gaduh.. hmmm... actually, i ta ske gaduh2 ni... i ta gaduh pon.. tp td.. action dia tu yg declare kiteorg gaduh... well, as i ckp before, i dont do hating i just do dislike... sbb kite xd hak nak membenci sesiapa pon~ I admit yg i ade cakap kasar and buat kasar and bla..bla..blaa sekelian yg menyakit kn hati dia... and i dh mintak maaf.. but still i do state yg i tak janji yg i takkan buat lagi.. sbb i still dalam process adaptation thdp dia.. seriously x tipu... 

ARghhh~!! i wish i can write it all... but i wont sbb i nk keep pride dia... but seriously.. if la dia fikir i really meanie mst i dh spill... hmm i decide to tell her one by one why i dont really like her.. sbb i dah tak tahan..  seriously x...

Cik Puan.. i taw u x suke i atas sbb sekian dan sekian.. and u pon taw i x suke u atas sbb sekian dan sekian... tp cik puan tahu x yg tindakan sekian dn sekian yg saya lakukan adalah untuk melindungi diri sy sendiri... ye saya selfish...

no matter where i go i will have a friendship problem... but i'm sure there always be someone by my side~ =))

Ranting~!

Bismillahirahmanirrahim....

OK! SPiLL~~

Olla me amor~~ lol..haha...its been a while kan x update so sgt la gian nk taip segala macam hahaha... so be prepare la... post ni probably panjang........kot

Btw its rant-ing not ranting kayu.. ranting where mean you babling all the way around sampai x igt dunia... maaa... teringt lak Rooftop Rant... still on WANT-TO-BUY List.. huhu

nak RANT and nak SPILL~!! seriously... i'm at the peak of sabar.. means hampir dah nk tak sabar la kan.. ok la... today i decide nak bukak segalabagai rahsia... which i think i ta bley simpan lagi.. seriously x...and i rase if mereka yg terlibat bc, i probably x kan ada kawan dh afterward.. huhu.. nasib la... daripada makan hati sorg..They said I'm sorg yg mudah SENTAP.. yes! i am... saya mengaku itu... but why?? sbb mende yg diaorg ckp tu a little bit harsh from my point of view.. tp bile i ckp smtg yg buat dyorg sentap, taw lak terase dn cakap belakang.. hmm... watcha think?? pelik kan manusia ni.. hmm.. i admit yg i pon pelik jugak.. hehe

Actually, this SEM i rse la a little bit tersisih.. but never-mind.. i did not live all this long to grow up and be a people yg keep relying on other.. seriously, i admit.. waktu at Taiping I'm that kind of person... as long as being ignoring by other x effect my study and all of thing yg akan effect my pencapaian...but u know what.. i really mcm faham je why people keep distance from me.. sbb i always express my feeling and x reti nk hide... i spill what i think and thought before i relize it... hmm.. my mistake.. and i seriously will try to behave myself...

a story to tell: there is one moment yg i terover express somthing about grouping work between two class. Mmm... his word yg buat i sentap is... " Knp bg dia ckp... kan dh bla..bla..bla.." maksud di mcm knp bg i ckp kan Mr W dh marah.. serious sentap... balik bilik i trus nangis.. my mistake sbb ckp harsh but the way of teguran x rse cam harsh jugak ke? as if i'm not a reliable person.. hmm.. nasib la..

 another thing is about FAKE-ness.. haha.. well people  keep ckp org lain fake... believe me.. everyone is fake.. well... i seriously tot my clss-mate bond is fine.. tp being bounce here and there i taw mostly adalah fake... sekian depan sekian is mengata and critisize sekian and also vice versa but when they r facing each other, we ar so called happy classmate... funny aint it.. ok.. i do observe and sbb to sometimes i x bley hide my ketidak sukaan terhadap seseorg... oh...btw I GADUH dgn Miss Negative Thinker.. lol~~